Last night I had another night where I couldn’t fall asleep. Although I was really tired, my head seemed to be the only one not aware of a much needed good night’s sleep (even the children seemed to understand that last night, because they slept the whole night. That is when they finally DID go to sleep).
Anyway this morning I sat and looked at my blog. I had a lot of ideas (that couldn’t seem to stop running around in my head last night), so I thought to myself let’s just pick one of the many ideas, surely that would be an easy thing to do? I mean you have written them down and everything, so just get on with it, right? But I couldn’t.
My ego made the comment that maybe it was a writers block. But I refused to accept that. Instead I looked closer at the picture, I last week had uploaded as the picture of my website/blog. It was a picture of my new note book especially bought for the occasion. I remembering standing in the shop for a very long time to try to feel my way into which one to pick (meanwhile the sales people kept asking if I needed some help? You think?). Although I was happy choosing it as my picture, when I set it all up, I knew I had to change it.
I had a deck of angel cards lying next to my computer, which I have used a couple of times lately. Especially when I have been having doubts about if I was on the right track. I really like the design with it’s beautiful blue, green and golden colors, so I thought I would just post a picture of that (I thought I am not going to turn any of them over. I had already decided on my picture, so no need for that). So I just took one and put it down on the desk, ready to take a picture.
But then I was told that it’s not THAT side of the card you need to look at. You have to turn it over. I started to question it. Was I really being told to do that? I thought I had already made up my mind about this picture and then I could finally get on to write about all my ideas that kept me awake last night, surely that’s why I got them in the first place?
I thought well I didn’t shuffle the cards or clear them of any energy, that might have been left behind since I last used them, like it otherwise says in the manuel, that you need to do before choosing your card(s). I thought to myself this can not count right? So why are they telling me to turn over the card when I didn’t do what you are suppose to do. But the voice was persistent.
I turned the card and it gave me an instant feeling that I’m on the right path, and the urge to start writing these words (clearly not a writer’s block ;-).
So what did the card then say? It was Awakening with Archangel Gabriel: “Look at things from a different perspective. A temporary standstill. It’s important to be yourself”. And of course I had to look up the details in the book the cards come with. “It’s time to review your plans, according to this card, and look at things from a new perspective. Ask yourself: is it possible that a different approach would work better? […] You may need to step outside the norm and mainstream right now and embrace your unique and eclectic beliefs or attitudes”.
So perhaps it’s time to turn things around, literally, time to change my picture, my perspective on things – especially regarding my job situation.