Your idea on what to focus on when writing your thesis has travelled around the university long before I got a chance to talk to you. The professor looked at me. I felt slightly embarrassed and nervous. Part of me feared that he would laugh at me and say that it was a crazy idea and what have you, but he was kind, understanding and went a long with my idea (at least to begin with 🙂 ). He challenged me to set it up, how, what, where, when until I finally realised myself that it could never work in real life.
Tuesday last week I wrote a blog post about The Law of Attraction. I set up an experiment and by that I took on the challenge if I could focus and manifest my way to having more followers on this blog (partly because I was curious if I could get it to work and partly because I was (slightly) feed up reading stories about people that claimed to have been manifesting this and that AFTER it had happened). So yes, I was provoked and wanted to do something differently (again you might add). Like the way my thesis at university started out.A lot of people wanted to write about leadership. What does it take to be a good leader? Is it something you can learn or is it a capability, that you’re born with? And so on. And what did I decide? Well it was certainly something completely different to make the rumor go around the university like it did. I decided to write about BAD leadership.
I wanted to know how it affected the employees and the company/organisation as a whole. But how do you really figure that out? I needed a company as a case for my thesis, but of course there was no way I could say, you know what? I’m curious about bad leadership – would you like to be part of my thesis?
I was 100% dependent on that someone would allow me to spend hours observing and talking to the leaders and their employees. So things to a different turn – a different view on leadership. There was no way I could have predicted the results I came out with in the end, but it was not only a very good learning experience, but it was truly a life changing one for me.I discovered how much I love interviewing people for research purposes. I could prepare my questions and then when they started talking, things often took a different turn. It was both nerve wrecking and inspirational. Nerve wrecking because they would answer something I hadn’t seen coming and how was I suppose to fit their answers around all the theories I was studying? Inspirational because, well do I need to say? Obviously because the real life and real people always made it so much more fun and interesting and in a way more life-affirming than some random theory from a book.
So the results from my experiment wanting to go from 46 to 111 followers in 8 days?
Well as you may have figured out by now, I didn’t make it. I made it to 49. So does that mean I have failed and made a fool of myself? I will let you decide that (please be kind 🙂 ). Could I have predicted that I wouldn’t make it? Well if I had used theories on probabilities and how many followers I on average attract per week, then yes I could have predicted that there was no way I was ever going to reach a total of 111 in 8 days. After all that would mean that I would have the impact on a total of 65 random people to hit the FOLLOW button.Is it a case of the theory not working? Or is it me that cannot make it work? Because I don’t understand it? Because I wasn’t good enough at staying positive the whole time? Because the universe wanted to teach me a different lesson and give me a completely different result, of which I could never have predicted?
Maybe I overstepped a special code that I was unaware of or maybe it’s because I was unaware that I had somehow unconsciously focused on the wrong media? Because I can tell you this much: On instagram I got 210 likes on this picture 🙂 (and I normally get about 3-6 likes per picture I post).
I could view this leap of faith as a failure and sit down and be sad about it all. Or I can choose to see it as another learning experience where the end results were something I couldn’t predict and in the process choose to smile like the leaf I found in the forrest last week.And you know what? I am going to continue to do things in a different way – That’s just me.