I see, is the answer

She opened another can and started to eat the content of it. She ate fast. She was sitting a few seats in front of me on the bus. It was dark. I could only see the silhouette of her. The smell of the open cans was one thing, but the sound of her chewing the sausages was even more disgusting. It was like she never closed her mouth when chewing. It would be a very long bus ride, if she would carry on like that.

The sea was only a couple of hundred meters away. I rolled down the windows. I could definitely hear it. The sun came out that same second. It brought tears in my eyes. I had a lot relying on today. I felt I had build it up so much in my head and on my blog. Last night I could hardly fall asleep that’s how excited I was about going to the sea today. Excited in a good way. You know the butterflies. Happy. Singing. Dancing. I was looking for answers and today, I was sure that I would find them. Continue reading “I see, is the answer”


She was about 12 weeks when she suddenly started to bleed. When she got to the hospital they told her, what she deep down already knew. She was devastated and heartbroken. She had wanted this baby so much. It was made out of love and she didn’t want to let it go. Was it a boy or a girl?

Today, as I was dropping of the girls at their daycare, I had an epiphany in the car. The last week or so I have been feeling like something was weighing me down. Emotionally. Not being able to put my finger on it, I have been going crazy (to say the least). I am about to make an important decision (about my jobsituation or lack of. Anyway more to come about this) and I couldn’t clear my thoughts enough to work out what it was. Continue reading “FEAR or FLY”

Embrace the unknown

Please put this on, he said smiling. And these, he handed me some goggles. And these too. He smiled at me, as he gave me a pair of gloves. Gloves? Yes it can be rather cold up there, you’ll see. We all got in the tiny little plane. 3 first-timers and 3 instructors. As I sat inside, what seemed to be the smallest plane in the world, so small it was not possible to sit upright, I didn’t know what to expect. Would I be able to remember, what the instructor had told me? And then, just as the engine was turned on, a man came running towards the plane. Nope, sorry guys you can’t go now as the wind has changed. We will have to reschedule for first thing in the morning – weather permitting! Continue reading “Embrace the unknown”


I don’t want this in my department. This is not how we do things around here. They looked down. I don’t know what its been like were you have worked previously, but I am telling you this now, this is not how I want it. A man walked by with his trolley. If there’s anything, that you find is not right or is missing, then you have to tell me straight away. As I told you, I don’t want this in my department. They nodded.Well, I’m glad we had this conversation, so you in the future can come and tell me, right? Continue reading “BOXED I(I)N”

What number is your energy? – 18/25

In a way I have been prepared to write this post for a while now. Or more dreading it, really, as I’m not sure where it takes me. You know that thing that constantly pops up in your head or is shown around you? You sit there going, why? what? again? Please tell me, what it means. I am begging you. I can’t help of wondering: when you’re being shown the same thing over and over again, when do the pieces fall into place, so you can finally understand what it means? Continue reading “What number is your energy? – 18/25”